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Accepting Light and DarkI'm not always good.
Nothing could change that. Nothing could.
Sometimes I just lose control,
Eventually everything takes a heavy toll!
But when I turn for the worse,
You're always there to uplift my curse!
I'm mean and I'm viscous,
I'm terminally capricious,
I'm impulsive and needy,
I'm selfish and greedy,
The sun sets on darkened skies,
Unveiling a hidden darkness in my eyes,
The caged monster inside me bates me,
He claws at my eyes so I cannot see,
My mentality is a thin string, the beast holds the knife,
He's fighting for control over my life,
And when I can no longer stand,
The guillotine drops from the sky dissecting the strand,
The beast is sadistic! The beast is insane!
He turns a storm into a hurricane!
And in the midst of calamity,
When the monsters flood my blood-red sea,
You're always sitting in the calm of the eye,
And I'll swim to you. Just don't let me die.
The beast possesses insatiable hunger,
He growls with thunder,
He barks with the sound of exploding bombs,
What I didYour mother gone, your father dead,
And on your own death-bed you lay,
While the whole time from dusk 'till dawn,
I did nothing but stay away.
I tried to go,
But fear held me back,
From my shattered mask my cowardice began to show,
My craven face visible through the cracks,
To think I called myself your friend,
When I didn't come for you in your time of dire need,
That I wasn't there for you in the end,
I should rot in hell for this deed,
When I heard I should have ran to you,
I should have been there by your side,
But instead, what did I do?
I stood by idle until the day that you died,
Three days you spent in the hospital,
That's three days you spent alone,
Because I sure as hell wasn't there,
Even though you were always there for me.
I was a scared little boy,
You could see the piss running down my leg,
I was a craven coward,
No better than dirt.
Despite all the things I did for you,
Despite all the things I ever said,
The only thing that will remain true,
Is that I am the worst frie
This Is Random~Hey I don't know if you got the time or not
But if you like random this is the spot,
I'm just a normal guy,
Breathing air so I don't die,
I'm fucking bored a little high
I'm sick of hearing bitches lie,
Gotta last another hour
I'm so bored and life is sour
But I gotta find the power
Keep movin forward I'll never cower,
Being bored is an utter crime,
Gotta bust some rhymes to help pass the time,
Gotta step it up a notch
There's not much time left on my watch,
I guess I'll go wherever the wind takes me,
Wherever the hell that place may be,
Maybe an island, maybe the sea,
Maybe the sky where I'll be free,
I've got just one thing to say,
I'm the greatest in every way,
There's no denying I'm the best,
Just gotta get that off my chest,
So don't challenge me, Mr. Big,
I'm the big bad wolf you're a little pig,
I'll turn you into strips of bacon
Now I hear you quakin,
This is random plain and simple
Gotta pop that nasty pimple,
Get grossed out, I don't care,
Judge me if you fucking dare,
The Darkest HourIn your darkest hour,
You laid alone,
I couldn't find it in my power,
To make your pain my own,
And then I heard the phone ring,
My heart came to a stop,
I prayed for a miracle,
But instead I hear the guillotine drop.
The sky fell,
The sun died,
The world vanished replaced by hell,
And I sat there and cried,
Oh my darling, why did you leave?
Why did you leave me behind to weep and grieve?
Why did you leave me behind,
To rot and bleed and lose my mind?
Tear drops fall like a never ceasing rain,
My heart goes cold with bitter cutting pain,
And suddenly I want to call you,
But I know that you won't answer,
I want to go to your house,
But I know you're not there,
Where are you, my love?
Why can't I see you?
Why can't I be with you?
Are you really gone forever?
You can't be gone...
But... you are.
Oh my darling, oh my darling,
Oh my darling Clementine,
Thou art gone and lost forever,
Please come back my Clementine,
The music box plays its rhymes,
And the clock begins
This is a note for why I died,This is a note for why I died,
The reason behind my suicide,
The clock hands struck their final hour,
And the reaper came, my thoughts endowed her,
With a bright smile she walked into my room,
With a blood-ink pen she spelled out my doom,
Up the ladder I ascend,
With open arms I embrace the end,
For this is my happiest day,
For I no longer have to stay,
So I wrap the noose around my neck,
Because my life was such a wreck,
I smile feebly at the floor,
Because I don't have to live anymore,
I close my eyes and take a breath,
I kick the chair and embrace death,
I feel the noose tighten, my body sway,
My limbs go numb, the lights turn grey,
And I smile cuz I don't care,
Cuz now I don't have to do science fair.
Oh My Darling...My Mother used to have a music box that played an old nursery rhyme. It played this song:
Oh my Darling, Oh my Darling,
Oh my Darling Clementine.
Thou art lost and gone forever,
Please come back my Clementine.
..... I took that music box and played it over and over again the day that Iris died.
IrisMental Mountain is my home. I sit at the peak.
I'm all alone. To no one I speak.
Under darkened skies I sit alone,
Living my life in monotone,
The monsters are temperarilly at bay,
The sun may come out, but never stays,
Every day is the same as the last,
Alone in my head, stuck in the past,
Dark gray clouds block out the sun,
Swallowing the colors until there are none,
Life is a monochrome painting of silver and gray,
Never changing, day by day,
And this mountain is my home. I sit at the peak.
Completely alone. Lonely and weak.
Wait... what is this light?
A single ray of color piercing the darkness, mighty and bright!
I shield my eyes and look up to the sky,
To the brightest shining light, bringing tears to my eyes,
Clouds burst and the skies turn clear,
The sun comes out and dries up my tears,
Suddenly the ceaseless winter comes to an end,
My deep scars seem to finally mend,
I'm bathed in caressing light,
Wrapped in warmth, awed by the sight,
The birds began to chirp and sing,
Written in Blood Part TwoWritten in Blood,
This is my pain, written in blood,
Out of my pen it begins to flood,
This is my pain, written in blood,
Written in blood, this is my life,
Surrounded by demons with cold bitter eyes,
Shrouded in darkness, abuse and lies,
I began to build a structure inside of my head,
Where I currently live,
Where I'm currently dead.
How You Got Your Sexual PleasureI was a little boy no older than four,
That's when you took my innocene away,
You evil pig, you dirty whore,
I'll never forgive you for what you did that day.
You tried to give me your disease,
Make me swallow it whole,
And my body rejected,
After that stunt you pulled.
You crushed my voice,
You pulled the ground from beneath me,
You threatened to kill me,
Ignored my choked pleas,
Then you beat me down,
Became the king and donned the crown.
The voice called himI feel so cold,
As she lashes out again,
A sharpness in her tone.
Why won't someone help?
My ears begin to ring.
I can't cry anymore.
The words lose their sting.
I know I am nothing.
I don't need her to say so.
I already want to leave.
I'm fighting the urge to go.
She can't hurt me.
The strongest hate is within.
The voice that loves to torture.
The voice I call "him"
He tells me to die,
that no one wants me here.
I know that he's right.
I shed another tear.
I'd leave but I'm afraid.
Afraid to go to hell.
So I listen to him,
and curl up in my shell.
The Guise of the GoddessI am the Mother
I am the Maiden
I am the Crone
In blue gowns I am the teacher
In my green I am new life
In deep pauses I am the olde one
In this game I am the dice
I am Goddess
Of Flowing Water
Of Ending Night
I am the Snowfall
I am the Moonlight
I am the Burning
I am the Owl's flight
I am the one in the twilight of sunset
I am the laughter in the chilled grasp of dawn
I am the embrace as you cross between worlds
I am the first light as you are reborn
I am the equal
I am the consort
I am the peace
When the battle is fought
I am the melody
That the night wind cries
I am the Goddess
With names for each guise
The Road of LifeDown a long and winding road
I marched along sans care or load
At a leisurely pace I strode
Not knowing where I'd go
Passing by old friend and foe
While sharp winds of change would blow
Sometimes it made my passage slow
But I continued on unbowed
Once at the journey's end I found
While looking back without a sound
A wonderful life had gone down
And now they lay me in the ground
Stride on through dark days and light
Never fear a righteous fight
Be known for your character's might
So all recall your well-lived life.
My heart is stolen by the seaOne with the ocean, one with the sea.
That's where I want to be.
Spend my life down by the bay.
The scent of the salty breeze is perfect in every way.
We watch the sun sparkle on the sea.
Watch the fish swim free.
We leave our footprints in the sand.
As we walk the shoreline hand in hand.
There isn't any other place I'd rather be.
Because my heart is buried by the sea.
The WordsI hate you
The words escape so easily don't they?
Effortlessly you spit them out;
Unheeding of their impact
Aren't they just words?
But are words ever just words?
I love you
Not so easy anymore, is it?
It takes strength to think them.
It takes more to say them.
And we fool ourselves
Into thinking they are unnecessary.
Why say what we know we feel?
But do we really believe that?
I miss you
I need you
How can it be so hard to speak truth,
When it's so easy to spout lies?
What more is there to say?
So much more.
The words are never just words.
So be careful what you say;
Because once they are spoken,
Nothing can wipe the stains away.
Hushed voices dressed in
white twist somewhere far above my
head and the bed that isn't
we aren't abl--"
My eyes are too heavy,
my tongue too thick.
I want to tell them
that I'm sinking but not
dying, not yet,
"--about her family?"
but the wind comes in through the
window, cracked open whisper-thin,
and pulls my voice away,
"only survivor, she's--"
"--ragedy really, to di--"
FlameI am the flame
Burning bright in the night
Guiding the world
Radiant in light
Greedy and generous
I shine without fear
Come try and smother me
You'll burn if you dare
Blazing the trails
The future I'll spark
Kindling the flame
That lives in your heart
Fear me and use me
I am friend, I am foe
Tool for destruction
Of everything you know
Remember my power
Lest you be burned
When my anger is tested
And my rage is unfurled.
Burning to embers
I'll ignite again
Charismatic to the end
Written in BloodThis is my pain, written in blood,
How deep it runs, its ceaseless flood,
Droplets of scarlet splash onto white,
My deep red sorrow, crimson and bright,
Blood-drops of agony splah onto the floor,
Searing pain bleeding through all of my pores,
This is my pain, spelled out for you,
Pooled on the ground in visible view,
It's written on the walls for all to see,
And yet nobody seems to connect it to me,
This is my pain,
It's driving me insane,
This is my pain,
Written in blood but all in vain.
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